Tuesday, January 29, 2013

So far so good.

As most everybody knows, I have been seeing a weight loss (bariatric) doctor and I am on the way to having a weight loss surgery. I am going to be getting the gastric sleeve. I am super excited about this, and so ready to be on the healthy highway. In doing all of this, I have had to face some fears, (going to the doctor) and so far I have gotten good reports. I go back to my family doctor in the morning to get the results from all my blood work and pap smear that I had 2 weeks ago. I am scared to death of this, but I figure if it is really bad news,  then they would have called me by now? I hope so anyway.

My husband had weight loss surgery 2 years ago (next month) and he has been miserable ever since. He had the lap band done. He has not lost any weight with it, and gets hung up every single time he eats, regardless of what it is most of the time. Those of you that have lap band, or knows someone with it, then you know what I am talking about when I say hung up. Well, guess what, he is getting it taken out and he too is going to have the gastric sleeve done. He will probably be able to have his surgery next month since he has been through everything and they are submitting all his stuff to the insurance as a revision. If everything goes according to plan for him, then he will be having his surgery around February 12th.
We have kind of been watching how much we are eating for the last couple of weeks, and we have almost completely cut out soft drinks and today when we weighed we both have lost weight...without even trying.

The hardest thing, for me anyway, so far, has been the soft drinks. I am like a fucking crack whore when it comes to that fountain Dr. Pepper. We both went without for a couple of days, but then by the 3rd day we broke down and went to Mc Donalds for a dollar drink. Bob said his was fantastic, I said mine tasted like shit. I didn't drink it. Since then, I have drank a soft drink almost everyday, and everyday it is the same...I do not like them, yet it is like I am begging myself to like them and crave them again. Stupid I know.

The next thing on the agenda...QUIT SMOKING!!! The only way this is going to happen is cold turkey. I can do it. I know I can. The Hubs on the other hand...Ugh, not looking forward to this part, but we shall do it...without killing each other in the process.

Until next time....

Monday, January 14, 2013

Life Changing Decisions

Those of you that may know me, know that I have some medical issues, yet I won't go to the doctor. I say medical issues, when I should say back issues, for the most part.

When I was married before, I never had medical insurance unless I was pregnant so I out of 11 years I only had medical care for 18 months. Insurance was too expensive. Thank God I never really got so sick that I needed major medical care, but during that time I did have to have my gallbladder taken out. If it had not been for my aunt, and her connections with doctors since she is nurse, that would have never happened until it became a life or death situation. So, with all of that being said, I have not had a "well woman" exam since I was pregnant with my first child. It's been about 14 years...next month. I have been told that I needed an MRI on my back, and possibly a cat scan on my head and neck to find out what causes all of my headaches, but I am so pessimistic that I have worked myself into a frenzy about going to the doctor. My dad passed away suddenly at the age of 40 from a massive heart attack, and my mom was 47 when she passed away from cancer. Can you see where I would be scared to go to the doctor? I am 35...I am not ready to die.

Well, I have made a doctors appointment and I go this week. 2 doctors appointments actually, and I go to both of them this week. One of them is for my check up and I will go over all of my concerns with the doctor, and the other one is a weight loss doctor. I am going to have weight loss surgery, as long as I am healthy enough to do it. It has already been cleared by my insurance! That is exciting!!! Also, the Hubs is thinking about having his lap band removed and having the same surgery as me. He says the lap band was the worst thing he has ever done. He does not eat a meal that he doesn't get "hung up" and end up not being able to finish his food right away, and 9 times out of 10, he ends up getting sick in order to get "unhung" and he really has not benefited from the band anyway.

So, here is to hoping for nothing but good news from my primary doctor Thursday!!

Thank God that is over with

Well, here in Texas, football is now over with, for the most part. You see, this is a house divided, the Hubs is a die hard Cowboys fan, I am a Cowboys fan, and Keigan says she is a Cowboys fan, but Dawson, he has decided he is a Texans fan. I will give him credit by saying he has liked the Texans in years past, but last year he was all about the Jets. Umm, are the Jets still in the NFL? lol
I will be the first to tell you, I do not keep up with the NFL, I prefer college football, but to be honest, I don't even keep up with that anymore. I do not know all the football lingo, I do not know who plays what position for the most part, but I do know that it takes more than a quarterback to make or break a team. I also know that Texans fans are about the worst that I have ever seen. Let me correct that...MOST Texans fans. It's like they have "little man syndrome" or something. Yes, I know with football comes all the shit talking, but these guys like to dish it out but can't take it, and they want to talk so much shit they have no clue about. Fuck, at least the time to look up facts if you don't know. I will not lie, if I want to know something about the Cowboys, I look it up.
Right now the big cry is how Matt Schaub sucks, and Ohhh, the Texans made it to the play offs, and where are the Cowboys? Well, the Cowboys did not make it to the play offs, but let me say, I am confident enough in my team to say that if they had the season the Texans did, they would have made it further in the play offs than the Texans. Meaning, this is the second year in the history of the Texans franchise that they have made it to the play offs, and the they CHOKED for the second year in a row, in the second post season game each year. They want to talk about the Cowboys couldn't do it, blah blah. You are right....it only took them 6 years to make it to the play offs, and another 5 to the Superbowl. I will also be the first to admit, the Cowboys need to make some major changes in their organization if they want to ever see another Superbowl.

Now, enough about football, lets all get on with our lives, until next year.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013


Ok, I am pretty sure that I have posted on here before about my love of documentaries, and one that the Hubs and I watched a while back on HBO called Paradise Lost. If not, well, now you know.

Since watching this 3 part series, I seem to have become somewhat obsessed with this case.

If you have no clue what I am talking about, let me give you an idea, and then you should look up the series and watch it, and do your own research and see what you think.

Paradise Lost is about the West Memphis 3, which were three teenage boys who were arrested, tried as adults and convicted of the 1993 tragic murders of three 8 year old Cub Scouts, Stevie Branch, Christopher Byers, and Michael Moore, all of West Memphis, Arkansas. At the time of their arrests, Damien Echols was 18, Jessie Misskelley, Jr. was 17 years old, Jason Baldwin was 16 years old.

They were believed to have abducted these boys and killed them in a satanic ritual based on the only fact that they wore black, hung out together, and listened to the likes of music such as Metallica, and stuff like that. Before these murders took place, Damien Echols was harassed by the local police for a couple of years, based solely on his appearance. Black hair, black clothes, long black duster, and just happened to live in a poor area, which I might add, is still poverty stricken today in 2013.  

I am not going to go into great depth, but please know that I have done a ton of research on this case. There is NO evidence that links these men to the crime, other than a FORCED confession from Jessie, Misskelley, who in the eyes of the state, has a fairly low IQ, and in the words of many of the investigating officers and other people involved in this, considered "not all there." There is DNA that links one of the victims stepdad and a friend of his to the crime, yet at the time, neither were ever questioned. Still to this day, neither of them have really been investigated by the authorities.

On August 19, 2011, after serving 18 years and 78 days, these men were released from prison with time served after entering an Alford Plea. According to the state of Arkansas this case is closed, but these men are still working to get pardoned and be cleared. They have made great progress.

Since they entered the Alford Plea, they agreed to never sue the state and should they get into any trouble (felony) within 10 years, they will go back to prison for 21 years. Damien Echols is the only person in Arkansas history to be on death row one day, and a free man the next.

I guess one reason this interest me is because of the injustice these men got. I could go on for days, and I am sure I will be writing more about this, and other things similar to it, but right this moment I have to get some things done around here. Until then....if you know about this case, what are your thoughts??

Monday, January 7, 2013

Let's give this another shot

I know I have said it a million times before, I love to blog and there was once a time that I was really good at it. Now it just seems that either I have nothing exciting to write about, or I just can't put what I want to say into words. It really sucks.

Like right now, I have a ton of shit to say, but don't know how to say it without coming across as a total bitch, which I am, but I don't want the drama, and I don't want to sound like a fucking titbag! Always complaining....I am sure you know the type. Haha.

Anyway, I am going to try to figure out to put some of my thoughts to words and I will be back......