Death

It seems like the past couple of weeks have been so tragic. I know several people who have been in killed in tragic accidents, and it has had me thinking. Thinking about the what ifs, and so much other stuff.
The one that is bothering me the most is the loss of a very good friend's ex husband. Yes, I said ex. They were married for years, and while I will not blast her person business, I will just simply say that she went through hell with this man. She already had a son when they got together, and he loved that little boy as his own. It is the only dad that boy has ever known. Her son was named after HIM, and they later had 3 beautiful girls together.
When she got the courage to divorce him, it wasn't because she didn't love him anymore. Not at all. In fact, she still loves him, and right now she is devastated, and not only mourning the loss of the father of her children, but a lover and long time friend.
He also was engaged to be remarried in June and has 2 more little boys. My heart hurts for his girlfriend, and those two other babies as well. What is bothering me right now is that there is all this talk on Facebook about donating money to help the girlfriend and their 2 boys out, but nobody is saying shit about my friend and their 4 kids! This bothers the hell out of me, yet I know it is none of my business. I am smart enough to know that death brings out the worst in so many people, and people become greedy. It is crazy.
Like I said, my friend is devastated and she is not wanting to talk to anybody. I am very worried about her.
Please keep this family not named in your prayers!

Before and after

Here is a before and after....a year later...from my gastric sleeve surgery. Almost 100 pounds gone! I'm super excited, yet I still want to drop about 20 pounds, and then I will be going to the plastic surgeon!

Kolton's Cake Smash

I went and took pictures for my pseudo grand baby, Kolton. He was not real pleased with having his pictures taken, but out of 145 shots, I did manage to get like 24 great shots...or at least I think they are great.

I suck at keeping up with this thing now.

So, I have the blogger app on my phone, and I start blogs all the time, but never finish them so I just delete the draft and tell myself, "Oh, I will write another one soon" and it never happens.
I have tons of shit to write about, but I have fucktards that read my shit, and I wish I could block them, yet don't really know how, but at the same time, I couldn't give a shit less what they think about what I write.
I know that I have said it countless times, but I am really trying to make more of an effort to keep up with this. I would say I would try to do at least one post a day, but that probably isn't really going to happen, so I will say at least once a week. Maybe sometimes more, but....

So much has been going on lately, yet right this moment all I can think about is that my baby is becoming a young woman...or has? She started her period for the very first time last night while she was at her dads house, and she didn't tell anybody, so she had to call me from school this morning and of course I went and picked her up and she spent the day with me :-) Ugh, am I really ready for this shit?!?!? Two kids with raging hormones....HELP ME!!!!

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Today's Youth

I know I titled this "Today's Youth" but really what I am about to write about is not just directed towards youth. I seen grown adults doing it.

I personally find it very disturbing when I see a teenager, and adults as well, post something on Facebook about "hating their life" or "FML" or just going on about how much their life sucks. Hello, YOUR life is exactly that. YOUR life, and it is what you make of it. Nobody is making you make the stupid decisions that you are apparently making. You are making them. Only YOU can change that. If you are 16 and pregnant, YOU are the one that laid down and willing played an adult game. If you are 18 and have a child and jump from man to man, and always talk about getting high, and then wonder why you are unhappy in love, that is something that only you can change. Keep your fucking legs closed, keep that joint out of your mouth, stop posting about it on Facebook, especially if you don't want your child being taken away, and worry about yourself and your child before you worry about trying to make a man happy, or him making you happy.
We are dealt crappy hands at time, and there is nothing that we can do about that other than try to make the very best of it.
I learned a long time ago that you have to live without regrets because how can you regret something that made you smile at the time. You can not dwell on the negative all the time. Face it. Put your big girl panties on and deal with it.

Teeth, they damn sure can be expensive!

When I was a small child, the first trip to the dentist that I can remember was a horrible time for me. To this day I can remember it, and feel the pain as if it were taking place this very moment. I got 8 fillings and 4 caps and not once time did they dentist numb my mouth. They would not let my mom go in the treatment room with me, and when she could hear me screaming out in such pain and demanded to know what the hell was going on, they informed her that doctor was just cleaning my  teeth...Well, for a couple of years I would not let my mom take me back to the dentist. I mean, I guess she could have since she was my mom and I was just a little kid, but you get my point. Also, some years later that asshole dentist killed himself because he was being sued for the millionth time because of the kind of treatment he was giving to his patients. Hmm.
My mom found a pediatric dentist and she started taking me there. It was a husband and wife practice and I absolutely LOVED it. I still remember their name and I have not been there in over 20 years. Yeah, seriously 20 years, but after my first visit to them I would literally beg my mom to take me to the dentist, and somehow I came to LOVE going to the dentist. Even as I got older and I knew that I would be having to get a filling or something, I still loved going.
Fast Forward to post children...my teeth started going bad. I had no insurance...blah blah blah...I ended up having to have 2 crowns done at one time on the top two front teeth, and now, 5 years later I am needing more dental work done....and this time I am not loving the idea of going to the dentist. lol.